Megamind (disguised as Bernard), “I’ve looked into the reset button. (sob) The science is impossible!”

happy birthday my love,
i really really love you, a lot
and I miss you a lot
terribly I miss you
I miss you like a missing half of body


MISS
– verb (used with object)
1. to fail to hit or strike: to miss a target.
2. to fail to encounter, meet, catch, etc.: to miss a train.
3. to fail to take advantage of: to miss a chance.
4. to fail to be present at or for: to miss a day of school.
5. to notice the absence or loss of: When did you first miss your wallet?
6. to regret the absence or loss of: I miss you all dreadfully.
7. to escape or avoid: He just missed being caught.
8. to fail to perceive or understand; to miss the point of a remark.
– verb (used without object)
9. to fail to hit something.
10. to fail of effect or success; be unsuccessful.
– noun
11. a failure to hit something.
12. a failure of any kind.
13. an omission.
14. a misfire.

i am one big miss, lol

everyday
i read your words
to remember, to validate
your hate
and your pain.

validate for myself
a reason why i cannot speak.
i have no words.

laid on the floor
and stayed there
paralyzed.

my heartbeat seems stronger
like it's trying to escape,
come out from my chest.

my stomach, more acidic
my lungs have less capacity
my blood, hotter
my skin shivers
and my fingers tremble
my muscles spasm
my bones feel heavy
my eyes
refuse to shut
i am choking.

my body cannot tolerate the pain
felt deep within

it's hitting all my nerves
like you once said.

you showed me a dream
and i threw it away.

slowly,
everyday.

i want to die
4 months

would have been

Sins

Chronological in Order

- Lost fear of God
- Lost belief in the existence of a God
- Disobeyed God's Laws
- Underestimated the power and wrath of God
- Abandoned sense of shame and honor
- Abandoned morals and values
- Pride
- Took life into my own hands; proceeded to live carelessly
- Immersed myself in wordy pleasures and desires
- Did not listen to parents
- Mistreated loved ones while caring for meaningless strangers.
- Encouraged innocent minds to take part in my evil habits*
- Lied
- Promiscuous style of dress
- Tempted a married man
- Lost virginity before marriage
- Participated in adultery
- Used foul language
- Drunkenness
- Engaged in party life
- Engaged in casual pleasure with other men("hooked up")
- Lied uncontrollably and kept secrets
- Used people like they were toys
- Disregarded the consequences of all my actions
- Committed severe act of injustice toward innocent victim
- Lied again

* New Addition to the List

do time machines exist?
I am seeking a fully functioning time machine.
willing to sell organs to get my hands on a time machine.

I cease to do evil